Beware: Skip to the pictures if you don’t want to hear my kind of depressing mood/thoughts today.
I’ve come down with a case of the blues, I think. It happens to everybody, not least to those of us living in a foreign country.
I live alone, even though I’m a person who craves companionship. I crave a lot of other things too, of course, but companionship is something that I would consider essential. It used to be okay when I was working every day outside of the home and therefore saw a lot of people, but ever since I quit the assistant job I spend a lot of time home, alone. I’ve gone whole weeks where the only person I’ve talked to at all is my boyfriend. But much as I’d like him to see me everyday, he can’t, and we can’t afford to live together yet. Going out alone also costs me money, so I have to keep it to a minimum. Actually, I’m most stressed about money, since I have to count every cent just to be able to eat well. (By well, I don’t mean very well– just slightly better than ramen!) If I’m really careful, I can afford to go out a few times a month, though then I can’t buy clothes (and sometimes like now I’m trying to conserve toilet paper until I get paid next Monday! Kind of funny, actually, LOL).
I don’t mean to complain! I just kind of wanted to unload somewhere was all. Truthfully, the money situation is my own “choice”, so I can’t really complain. By that, I mean that it’s my choice not to get a job that I loathe in order to make slightly more money. Instead, I use the time between my tv and newspaper job to work on carving a future for myself. I’m actually quite busy, although it’s not on anything that will pay hard money right now. I suppose it’s a bit like college, in that the work that I’m doing now will hopefully lead to awesome jobness in the future. 🙂
I like it. I love it, actually. But that still doesn’t take away the fact that finances are really, really tight, and I can’t see many people.
But I’ll make it all better somehow! This is my life, and I’ll get through it. Things will turn out swimmingly in the end, it’s just that the journey can be tough.
I really do believe that they’ll turn out alright. I just have to wade through the concerns and times that I get discouraged in order to get there.
It’s just a matter of time! Well, I’m still young (just 31!), and I feel like I’ve only barely started on my life. There’s so much more to learn!
This is me yesterday:
I put on makeup, but.. there seems to be something off. Maybe it’s the lack of smile! I’ve also gained 5 kilos in a week. Theoretically, it’s not possible, and I wasn’t eating much more than normal. So perhaps it’s water weight? I’ll go back on my diet again tonight– at least exercise makes me feel better! Those endorphins really work!
Leaving through my door..
Locking the door. Last week I cleaned my other room (the one that I don’t use aside for storage, because my neighbors are too loud to sleep/relax. I complained many times, both to the landlords and to them personally. But they are college boys and don’t seem to understand the concept of thin walls, probably because I am not loud in return. Oh well, hope I can move eventually! There’s that money thing again! Don’t worry! Ganbaru!! 83)
I’m feeling a little better now. Blogs are like free therapy. All they cost is time! And I really, really love being able to talk to everyone through my blog! Both the people I know in real life, those I’ve only talked to online, and those that never comment but always stop in. Everyone is precious to me, because they take a little bit of time out of their day for me. ^^
Going down my walkway:
Today was cold, but I wore sandals anyway! Sandals are great. ^^
What is this? Hmm? 🙂
A girl was jaywalking and I caught her ON TAPE! :3 :3 :3 There is no point other than to prove I’m not the only one who jaywalks in Japan, lol. (Everyone does it. NO EXCEPTIONS)
Today in Japan 🙂
Those are some legs!!! Do you agree?
A good (?) shot of a typical japanese bus!
I wonder what she was thinking..
A street in my neighborhood.
I don’t know why, but this lady makes me crack up!
Shopping baskets at a store along the way.
Boxes and stuff at the supermarket 🙂 Actually, they’re called supermarkets even though they only have food. That’s not very ‘super’ to me!
“Fall sale” sign at a very boring suit store for men.
By the way, you might have seen this:
It’s me! What do you think?
Also, give me your tips for any jobs you think I could do on the side before I make it big, lol!
In the meantime, back to my Japanese life! Gotta work hard to make things turn out well! GANBARIMASU! (Japanese for “I’ll do my best!”)