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A new me, a new life!

It’s the weekend, and I feel like I want to kick back a little bit and talk about the future. 🙂

Look, it’s me! Or, rather, one incarnation of me.

I’ve gone through a lot in my life. I moved from Washington to California to Arizona to Japan, and then back to Washington, where I am now (temporarily). Hawaii is my next destination, out from under the thumb of family and out on my own again. Like a real adult. I feel like it’s a big change, and I’ve talked about why I chose Hawaii of all places, and also about how excited I am for it. I feel like I’m a different person than I was a year ago, or two or three years ago. I’m definitely a different person than the one who moved to Japan.

And I’ve been thinking about it for a few weeks now, how I want a makeover to sort of commemorate it.

The many incarnations of me, from high school at the left to my current hair.

That’s my natural hair color on the left, followed by my orange hair, my failed attempt at blonde, and finally to the dark brown that it is now. I think that right now is actually the best color that I’ve had so far. I certainly look the youngest and feel most confident with it.

But, you know, what I want most is pink hair. Light, gorgeous pastel pink.

I thought at first that maybe I should do an ashy, dark blonde like Tris (on the left below), with pink tips or streaks, much like the other gorgeous ladies here:

But, the more that I thought about it, and the more that I looked at photos, I think that I want a lovely all-over bubblegum pink, like these ladies (not the dark pink one. A lot of people recommended that for me, but I really, really want the pastel pink, and it’s my hair).

I’d keep my same hairstyle– straight with bangs, or occasionally curly, since I just love, love, love bangs. They’re much less maintenance for me, too, since my hair is quite flat, so I’d have to do a lot to get a part to look good.

Of course, my very strict mother is against it. But I’m a grown woman, and pretty soon, I will be out of her hair, no longer having to listen to her constantly put me down. She’s the kind of person who has a negative opinion of any change (she hate, hate, haaaaates my vegan diet, and pushes junk food on my all of the time. Sometimes erupting in a heated argument, because according to her I “could just try it.”) She has no concept of the word “no” and what it means. Sometimes, I just can’t even argue with her, and it’s easier to give in. Not with food, though. I never, ever give in to her pushing junk food in my face. She is overweight, has frequent migraines that cause her to throw up, and almost constant mouth sores, yet she refuses to eat better.

Well, it’s her body. Any suggestion that I make (eat this avocado instead of that pizza) is met with resistance, and she can’t understand the concept of fresh fruit, I believe. She was going to the store with her husband, and I asked her to pick up some pears if she could. When she came home, she had two cans of pears in syrup (gross!), and said proudly, “I got your pears!” When I said that I wanted fresh pears, and she should know from the many times that I’ve said so that I don’t like pears or peaches in syrup (the don’t even taste like the real thing, they taste like candy), she said, “these are real pears. They’re the same thing!”

Apparently she didn’t see the two pears that I bought and left on the counter a few weeks ago to ripen (before scarfing them down hungrily). Yeah, forget this. I’ll just continue doing my shopping on my own and drink green tea instead of coke and eating tofu and beans instead of pizza and fish sticks.

Incompatible. I can’t wait to get out of here! If my book does well, I can leave right after it’s out, or possibly after TCAF (It would be easy to leave Sansa here for a few days with people that she knows, than fly to Hawaii and get her a cat hotel when I don’t even have an apartment yet). It would give me time to see my friends in Seattle, too, before I leave the area. I don’t have the slightest idea when I will be back. It had been seven years since I set foot in Washington, and nothing against the state itself (except for the legalization of marijuana, which I don’t particularly like), but I hope that I don’t have any reason to come back for a long time.

My sister and Grandma and various cousins (and brother, but on the other side of the state) are all here, but maybe they’ll come to visit me instead. Hey, there’s always skype, too.

Suffice it to say that I’m so, so, sooooo done with this place. I look forward to having my own place to write and draw in peace, without constant screaming about how worthless my goals are, useless my life is because I don’t have children, and constant nagging over my (extremely healthy) diet to get in the way. Or, of course, how I’m “never busy” (she can’t understand writing as being anything important), so I get volunteered for everything.

Yeah, done. Help me out of here by recommending my book when it comes out, you guys, to everyone you know who might love it. 🙂 It should be out within 2 weeks, so here is me putting my working gloves on, and considering going to Starbucks tomorrow just to get away from it all. :3

Oh yes, and I’ve sort of become enamored recently with the idea of an elegant, feminine, tattoo of birds across my back of collarbone (or forearm?). They’re bursting free of the earth, leaving behind the ground for the sky, where they can stretch their wings and soar. You can thank the Divergent movie for inspiration (that was also the feeling that I got while watching the movie), and looking around online, I found these examples that I all really like:

I’d like to ask your opinions!

Which one do you like the best? Also, what’s your opinion on pink hair? Should I wait until after I move to Hawaii to get them both done? It makes sense to me, the hair because I could pick a hairdresser and keep going back to him/her, and the tattoo because Washington is so cold, I would be wearing a coat or sweater every day to cover it up, so what’s the point?

Please send me your thoughts! I’ll get back to editing now, but I look forward to hearing your reactions over this next week! Please comment!! *loves on you all* You’re totally my saviors, and I can’t wait to take you all along while I make the next big journey of my life, and try to carve a little place of my own out in this world. <3 <3 <3

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Hi! This is Jamie Lynn Lano! I am a Washington State (USA) native who: ☆ Holds a Bachelors of the Arts in Media Arts & Animation from AiPx. ☆ Worked as an assistant mangaka in Japan for Konomi Takeshi on The Prince of Tennis. ☆ Was an essay columnist for Asahi Weekly from 2008-2013. ☆ Was the star of Asahi Pop'n Press on Asahi TV (Japan) from 2009-2013 ☆ Was a write for Metropolis magazine in 2010. ☆ Has kept a blog foreeeeeeeeever! First and Current blogs.


  • mona

    Hi Jamie
    Maybe you can blend the brown with pink like kobato anime character. I don’t know but I always loved brown and pink together.
    Now I understand why you hate small towns. You need to be involved with open minded and positive people. Be cause let’s face it its hard staying with negative person I know this because I live with one. My mom would force me to work as soon that I got my college diploma. Our life wasn’t that privileged XC
    Hope to see your published book.
    Good luck

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      I might try to do that. I may go a dark blonde first with pink streaks, and then gradually change to all pink. 🙂

      Oh yes, that is a huge reason why I need a big town. But even more so, I like to be able to have choices when I go shopping and look for things to do and eat. In a small town, there tend to be few choices, and the choices there aren’t ones that I like. For example, I am vegan, but there is not a single vegan restaurant in this whole city. In New York there are hundreds. 🙂

      Yeah, I’m lucky to not have to pay rent right now, so I can do this. But after staying here for a while, I’m definitely thinking that I’d rather pay rent and be broke and starve than stay here any longer, even if it’s free. It’s not worth the toll on my mental health.

  • Aoi

    ahhh you got prettier and prettier as you grew up!!! I want to age as gracefully as you have! -hopeful- LOL

    Basically you want either Harajuku-kei pink hair all over or Sheryl Nome streaks 😛 I think honestly; blended would be easier than a full head. Some of your reference pics are definitely wigs. The bleaching and upkeep can be crazy but you should definitely try it.

    Good luck with everything! Don’t let anyone get you down. You’re working super hard and deserve to really have a nice break away from the work and negativity! You’re almost there though! I can see it. 🙂

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      Aww, thank you so much! You’re so pretty yourself, though! In my case, I figured out over time what hair color and style made me look younger (so I will keep the same style forever unless I get short hair, most likely), and I am constantly experimenting with makeup and how it can change my look. 🙂

      My skin has also really improved recently since going vegan. 🙂 🙂 🙂

  • KC

    first of all, you look soooo cute in that last pic with the super dark hair and the headband! XD you look like Snow White!! <3 personally, i don't think that light hair would really suit you, but i'm all for doing whatever the f*ck you want, so if you wanna do that, i'd say go for it! i would wait til you're in Hawaii though… just seems less 面倒くさい then having to deal with your mom, ne?

    speaking of which, i really feel for you. i think no matter what the situation is, it's never fun to have to go back to live with your folks as an adult, after having lived alone for a while… just think of it as a necessary evil!! hang in there!!

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      You’re right about it being less of a hassle for sure! I think that I will wait.
      I do worry that it won’t suit me, but then I think, hey, it’s hair. It’s not the end of the world if it’s weird-looking, I can always cut it short and dye it. Sure, I don’t really want short hair, but it would be a good excuse to give it a try! XD I actually look good in it, depending on the style (well, I’ve looked good in a shirt magenta wig is what I mean XD).

      Necessary evil…. that is hopefully drawing to a close!! I can’t waiiiiit!

  • Aurora

    I know how you feel. I decided to study interior design and my mom at first wasn’t very supportive, she wanted me to study administration or something about tourism because I live in a turistic destiny. Being a designer was my dream so now that’s my career. At first was difficult to find a job and of course she started to tell me that being a designer is worthless and because I speak english I should start working as a receptionist in a hotel. I refused and kept looking a work as a designer.
    Now I’m starting a business, my mom is happy for now, I know she loves me and she’s worried about me because she doesn’t want me to be one of miles of young people who doesn’t have a job in Mexico.

    I think you look beautiful with your current hair and the bubblegum pink sounds like a great idea. I’m one of those people who has never dyed their hair, my hair color is dark brown and I don’t think another color would look good on me.
    About the tatoo my favorite is the one in the arm.

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      Thank you, Aurora!! Yes, we have really similar situations!!! I wish that my mom would support me (or at least just stop putting me down), but I don’t think she would do that even if I was a bestselling author touring the world. She just doesn’t think that working from home can ever support yourself, even though so many people do it in all kinds of professions!

      I’m glad that you perservered and were able to get into the design field!! You’re a great example of what can happen if you never give up!

  • J.Sinclair

    I totally feel where your coming from when no one supports your artist goals. One day you will find someone just like I have. While reading your mom forcing junk food on you I knew she was overweight and laughed when I read it. Stay true and can’t wait to read your book.

    PS: I would like to interview you for my Youtube channel to help you gain more exposure.

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      Thank you, J! It’s hard to stay strong sometimes, and sometimes I yell back at my mom when I get too frustrated. She also has no concept of personal space and will stand right up next to you, completely invading it. I do hope that I find someone who will love me as much as I love them one day, but who knows if there’s even a person like that out there!

      And sure! Send me an email to jamie@jamieism.com and we can talk about the interview. 🙂

  • Rodney

    Sounds just like my mom, but hey you gotta give them credit for trying. Don’t be too mad at her. I think you should wait till you get to Hawaii to get your tattoo as you don’t want make permanent decisions pre maturely and Hawaii has a whole gamet of tattoo artists. From the amateurs to the guys that charge a $1000 bucks just to sit down. And I garauntee we have the most tattoo shops per capita lol. As far as the hair goes I’m not too sure your on your own with that one;) looking foward to more posts

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      Thank you, Rodney! I can’t wait to get them done! That’s probably why I am also leaning toward the one on the back. It’s pretty, but most of the time you won’t even be able to see it. On my wrist or even collarbone (since it’s hard to find shirts that close up all the way on the front for me, thanks to wide shoulders), would be pretty conspicuous.

  • Victoria

    Oooh hair dye O.O you should definitely dye your hair pink! Or maybe red because you have dark brown hair 🙂 as for tattoos, I’m not really for them. (Mainly because tattoos are permanent and they involve needles) but you should probably dye your hair when you get to Hawaii, so that you’ll have the same stylist(speaking from experience) 😛 Btw I dye streaks of my hair red and occasionally pink! It’s a lot of fun *^~^*

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      Thank you, Victoria! I haad my hair quite red in between some of the incarnations that I posted, but was never able to find the right shade. That’s probably because I was in Japan for most of my adult life, and there basically very little other than brown available there. I may try it again, though! I don’t think I’d want to stay pink forever, either. ;D

      You must be blonde to be able to dye streaks of pink and have them show up. Lucky! 😀 When I do streaks, you can’t really tell at all, lol.

  • Jonnie

    It’s too bad about the food and general negativity at home 🙁 I think it would be good to do the transformation in Hawaii because of the reasons you mentioned plus it’ll definitely be a great bang for ushering in a new chapter in your life! I really love the picture of the dark pink hair but bubblegum pink sounds very fun too! As for the tattoo, my favorite design is the one on the arm. I really like how the birds fly off to a distance (to the future?!) Oh my, I have so many posts to catch up on!

  • Nathan Roach

    Hey Jamie! I’m all for the hair, but I encourage you hold out on the tattoo and give it a little more thought as that is something you’ll be stuck with for the rest of your years. Also, in light of your current home setting I’d say wait to make both changes until the move as it’ll be one less thing to argue about. Just a

    When your book gets released please post about it and I’ll spread the word ASAP! You have my love and full support; keep up the great work and take care.

    • Jamie Lynn Lano

      I agree, it’s better if I wait until I move to make the changes. The last thing that I need is people here raising a stink because they have never fathomed of something other than working at WalMart and leading a simple life free of anything that makes you stand out (this is what my mom is like, anyways).

      And yes, I will! It will be all over as much of the internet as I possibly can put it on! It will be on Amazon and my website, but the best deal will be through my website for sure (also, I wouldn’t get any money from Amazon for three months). Thank you for spreading the word with me! I m going to be working on it all day today as well. 🙂

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